Memories

I am scheduled to attend a 2 day training course back at my campus, Temasek Polytechnic. It was just a few months since i went back to school as a student, and the walk along the concourse definitely brought back memories during my past 3 years. Those sessions which we were so chaotic and making so much noise along the concourse were the legendairyz!

It’s been a few months since i worked like full-time while waiting for my enlistment. Yes, it has definitely been an experience for me as a premature working adult, and having happy hours after work with colleagues older than me. It’s a change of lifestyle, no longer those hanging out at night along the streets. I miss those times when we go out for rides and just hang around everywhere anywhere late in the night.

I know i can’t just let go of this feeling, but as time passes, we are all scattered, each on our own. Some others enlisted, some going in soon, some started their working life in the society. 2 years down the road, i will be continuing my studies in SMU taking econs as my degree. I definitely am looking forward to those studying school life again.

Like my graduation 2 weeks ago, it made me realized that we are all on our own now. No more spoonfed income, no more sheltered life, every action we do, impact our life down the road. I have said it many times, and yet, i will say it again. Like my mum always say, i meet people that always guide me along the way and we eventually became friends. No doubt i am very thankful for that.

These people serves as a role model for me. I want to be like them, being the family man and not pick up those philandering ways. Finally i had lunch with one of my 2 close lecturers today, which he brought me out for fish head curry. Just throughout the lunch, i was asking him about his life. I was wondering how he is able to be contented with what he possess and not like others which i encountered. Others succumbing to greed, hatred, lust, and eventually falling to their temptations.I have met others whom lived their life working for their temptations. Not all can conquer temptations, but at least those undesirable ones.

Of all the good friends whom i have made, both of them are my role models, one being compassionate and humble to others, the other being contented and having a very adaptable simple mindset. Seeing them cultivating throughout their life, i can say they serve as a deep inspiration and motivation for me.

For example, just mentioning smoking, drinking, clubbing and gambling, such undesirable activities, how does one manage to stay away from such even though they aren’t those religious people. They do know that my constant dilemma is always my parent and constantly teaching me as the role of a mentor.

I kept thinking, if i really want to kick those bad habits, what’s stopping me? With every bad habits that i kept, my mum will always say she is disappointed with me, but she does not scold me a single bit. This eventually makes me even more guilty, but not strong enough for my mind to kick those habits. I hate to disappoint my mum, but neither am i able to have a strong mind on my own to kick those bad habits away.

I told myself to always look up into my 2 mentors and constantly reminding myself to be like them, to follow their cultivation, to follow the lifestyle they have. No clubbing does not means not having a good social lifestyle. Well, at least for now we may think it’s good. But most importantly is our character which we have developed throughout these growing years.

Humility, Patience, Contentment, Compassion. We always see these words around and we know it, yet practicing it is hard. Because 10 years down the road, when i am 30, i always look back and grateful for my parents, those 2 mentors which have played a part in my upbringing. You may think, how are people going to affect one in their upbringing, but for me, it sure does, a big part indeed.

I need a change, a slow change and constantly reminding myself to have these values, Humility, Contentment, Compassion, Patience and the most important value of all, gratitude to others whom have affected my life. I know it’s tough and requires a very strong mental mind(which i obviously lack), but i know i will never stop trying to change and be a good boy and one day, i will be able to look back & say “hey thank you for making an impact in my life”.

Looking forward to the day……………………

Meanwhile enjoy some pictures of my graduation few weeks back, & i realize i did not manage to have a picture with Han Young. Damn.

Thank you to my parents for bringing me up for the past 20 years. I am always trying my best to be a good son and not disappoint you guys.

My lecturer that made an impact in my life.James.

Wonderful Classmates for the past 3 years

My project team for the 3 years, it was a great experience and we learnt the most out of one another

My Major Project groupmates, even though we had our differences, we overcome those and learnt a lot from one another. It was definitely a worthy project.

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